THE DOC SONGS

copyrights 1991-2008 David A. Engstrøm

Ballad of Story*

light, dancing in the sound,
light, take us from this earthly bound,
no time, no sight,
in this eternal light,
no sound, no thing to see,
reaching for the opening!
I can hear them calling me!
day-of-my-awakening day!
awakening day! Awakening day…

Beyond the Horizon*

beyond the horizon,
I saw many things,
finding out about the day,
beyond the horizon,
I saw wonderous things,
finding out about the day,
I watched the colours of all minds,
blending into light,
into a sea of consciousness,
go all the mental streams,
experience dances in front of the universal eye,
unending collection,
blending into light,
we are blending into light!
beyond the horizon,
we are home…

Body~Mind Universe*

The heart is a drummer,
Beating out the rhythm of the living,
the blood is a river,
carrying the breath of the living,
on the bodymind universe,
mind is a mirror,
reflecting on reflecting on reflecting-
people are a puzzle,
searching for the meaning of their being,
in this bodymind universe-
we’re caretakers in the garden,
of the living vine,
caretakers in the garden,
of the bodymind,
caretakers-
we’re caretakers…

Destiny in the Finding

there are places I haven’t seen,
they call to me-
answers to my many questions,
wait for me in crystal waters,
of quiet speaking rivers,
that long for my return,
my destiny in the finding of myself
there are lives i haven’t lived,
waiting for there chance with me-
there lies the dreamer spirit,
whose vision dances before the mystic,
who leads me to my own horizon,
where i provide the light,
my destiny in the finding of myself

Don’t Hurry*

Come on, stoke the fire!  come on, stoke the fire!
Come on, take it ever higher,
Come on, take it ever higher, into the light,
Right here in the middle of the night,
Take the timing from the time,
take the timing from the time,
slow down, don’t hurry-
take the reason from the rhyme,
take the reason from the rhyme,
slow down, don’t you hurry, no,
oh, when you gonna let go of your aching mind?
all I’m asking you,
is what is it that you want me to do?
i’m trying so hard to understand you- understand you,
don’t hurry, don’t you hurry,
take your time, you don’t have to hurry,
slow down, don’t hurry

Exodus*

opening doors others don’t want to open,
the mind is clear, the heart is open,
no where to run, nowhere to hide,
nothing left to say, no tears left to cry,
standing on the very edge, no more waiting,
i am leaving, i am heading over,
exodus!  exodus!  exodus!  this is the exodus!
it’s not about hello-goodbye when you pursue unknown,
stage already set, seeds already sewn,
leaving everything behind,
no telling what we’re going to find,
stretching-folding bodymind,
reaching past the chains of time,
exodus!  exodus!  exodus!  this is the exodus!
and now the  pathway has been revealed,
and now is open that which was once concealed,
I move past my fear to fall,
moving through the great and small,
well beyond the shadow hall,
i can hear the wonder call-
exodus!  exodus!  exodus!  this is the exodus

Fly Over The Mountain*

dream the dream of children,
playing in the sun,
dance the dance of icarus,
heading to the sun,
dream the dream of children,
playing in the sun,
dance the dance of icarus,
heading to the sun,
on the day-oh,
on the way-oh
on the day,
on the day-oh
climb over the tree line!
climb over the tree line!
we’re getting closer to the main line,
it’s a fine line of a fine line,
fly over the mountain!
fly over the mountain!
looks like we’ve come to the end,
of the end of the end of the end,
of the end of the end of the end,
we made our final selections,
chosen our respective directions,
feeling uncomfortable tension,
witnessing the death of dimension,
now we’re going to fly, over the mountain,
fly over the mountain!
stare into the emptiness,
stare into the emptiness,
of attainlessness,
that’s surrounding us,
it’s a wilderness

Focus

it’s all beginning to focus,
clearing in my mind,
a never-ending circus,
but i can walk the wire
as i look up i see the rainbow,
on the other side,
adventurer i seek the rainbow,
on the other side
on the other side, a clown is laughing,
from his side he holds my wire,
if he let’s go i fall into the fire,
there, the valley of the shadow,
I must cross,
on my rope the straight and narrow,
I will walk,
enlightenment comes slowly,
but I understand the answer,
from the answer comes the question,
I step off my rope and fly,
fear is my only shadow,
I must conquer,
now I fly high above the shadow,
to the realm of my rainbow

Further On

further on, coming and going, never the same,
where is it that i’ve been, further on?
further on, vexes and visions,
what is it that i’ve seen, further on?
time is strange, it goes in the blinking of your eye,
as you wonder about time,
each moment’s thoughts creating the past and the future,
further on, totally different, but feeling familiar,
have we started again, further on?
further on, reaction directed anticipation,
what messages should i send, further on
as you wander, down,
life is strange it flows like a river of dreams,
as you wander, down
each moments thought creating the past and the futurem,
I am alive in the past and the future,
alive, in the past and the future,
alive, in the past and the future,
the past and the future,
the past and the future,
past and future

Hey Yea

somebody told me
i should save it for a rainy day,
somebody told me,
no, i should keep it for a better day,
somebody told me,
to wipe the smile right off my face,
somebody told me,
i was something of a national disgrace,
yea, yea-yea, their always, tellin’ me
somebody told me
i should have faith in the lord above,
somebody told me,
that faith was blind, as blind as the love,
somebody told me,
there was no way for me to be free,
somebody told me,
i could not be you, you could not be me,
oh yea!, yea, yea! always, tellin’ me,
oh yea, yea always, tellin’ me,
hey yea, hey yea, hey yea, hey yea,
hey yea, hey yea, hey yea, hey yea-
i’m gonna get real steady,
gonna get real smooth,
gonna take it down the highway,
gonna slip into the groove,
i don’t know exactly what i’m gonna do,
but if you want to, you can come too,
hey yea, hey yea, hey yea, hey yea-
gonna talk with brother raven,
gonna slip into the sky,
gonna talk with brother raven,
gonna slip into the sky,
my down will be up,
and my up will be down,
and when i go this time,
i’m never coming down,
i’m gonna be a long way,
long way off of the ground,
sister be a long way,
a long way off of the ground

Hold the Line

your fingers are my actions,
your moods are my passions,
you move me through stories,
surprised by my reactions,
hold the line, hold the line,
when I’m searching,
hold the line, hold the line,
join the journey,
hold the line, hold the line,
let me love you- hold the line,
lately I’ve been slipping,
need to feel the hand of understanding,
what do you do when you know
who you are,
and what you are, and
where you want to be?
lost in a world blind with greed,
running blind,
it’s a blind machine,
hold the line, hold the line,
when I’m dreaming,
hold the line, hold the line,
join the journey,
hold the line, hold the line,
let me love you- hold the line,
and when i find the peace of mind,
and leave behind delusion and insanity,
and quiet settles in on me,
again to see with eyes of clarity,
will I find you there with me,
holding me, loving me?
oh, darling,
hold the line, hold the line,
when I’m sailing,
hold the line, hold the line, live the love,
hold the line, hold the line, let me love you- hold the line.
your fingers are my actions,
your moods are my passions,
you move me through stories,
surprised by my reactions,
hold the line, hold the line,
hold the line

How Can I Hear?*

all i ever wanted to see was my own mind,
all i ever wanted to hear was the sound of my soul,
but how can i hear?  how can i hear?
so many thoughts are twisting around in my brain,
feelings ache me, as they blow through my body in waves,
and i know in a moment,
lifetimes are here and then gone,
we come, we grow, we fade, we die,
we carry on,
and i want to know, i want to know,
the sound of my soul,
all i ever wanted to see was my own mind
all i ever wanted to hear was the sound of my soul,
but how can i hear?  how can i hear?

Human Being*

good sun, rise well,
don’t forget to be peaceful,
take care, be fair, don’t sell each other,
being, being human,
human being,
good day, live well,
don’t forget to be peaceful,
let go of everything,
leave it all behind,
being, being human,
human being,
simple to be simple,
to be simple to be,
simple to be simple,
simple to be, to be,
human, human being,
being human,
goodnight, sleep well,
don’t forget to be peaceful,
take care, be fair,
don’t sell each other,
being, being human,
human being,

Icarus Landing

daedulus cried when icarus fell,
then shook his head and thought it just as well,
flying too close to the sun,
as if he was the chosen one,
and left for the mainland,
full of hope and sorrow,
but back at the scene,
gasping for breath,
narrowly escaping water death,
he looked in vain at an empty sky,
with heavy hearted sigh,
he swam to the nearest shore,
in the new land he told his story,
but no one there believed him,
they smiled and shook their heads,
“first of all it’s impossible to fly,
secondly, you would never survive the fall
of your icarus landing”

I Don’t Know

i don’t know, i don’t know, i don’t know, i don’t know,
i don’t know i don’t know, i don’t know, i don’t know,
i don’t know, i don’t know, i don’t know, i don’t know,
i don’t know i don’t know, i don’t know, i don’t know,
who, what, when, where, why, do we understand the questions
who, what, when, where, why, do we rise above?
who, what, when, where, why, do we understand the questions
who, what, when, where, why, do we find the love?  i don’t know…
look at the ground, look at the sky,
see all the fields of flowers,
look at the wrist, look at the watch,
see the minutes turn to hours,
look at the ground, look at the sky,
see all the fields of flowers,
look at the wrist, look at the watch,
see the minutes turn to hours,
who, what, when, where, why,
do we understand the questions
who, what, when, where, why,
do we rise above?
who, what, when, where, why,
do we understand the questions
who, what, when, where, why,
do we find the love?  i don’t know

In the Ending of Time*

has it hit you, has it hit you, like water falling down?
tell the story.
has it hit you, has it hit you, like water falling down?
has it hit you, has it hit you?
tell the story.
magick woman, shaman man,
look for magick, look for medicine,
has it hit you, has it hit you, like lightning from the storm?
has it hit you, has it hit you?
tell the story.
angel woman, angel man, live in dark world,
do the best they can,
what’s going on now, what’s going on now?
look through my kaleidescope and see if you can find,
the colours and the patterns of the world you left behind,
what’s going on now, what’s going on now?
tell the story.
in the ending of time, in the beginning of the world,
there were no prisoners, no suffering there,
in the ending of time,
it’s getting cool in the morning,
ice winds are burning,
october returning, again,
in the ending of time,
I take a walk in the evening,
my mind is empty, my body is dancing again,
in the ending of time,
tell the story, tell the story,
drink from the fountain,
breathe the clouds in,
be the being that you are, but you can’t name,
love that we share, that’s the same,
in the ending of time,
tell the story, tell the story,
for the clocks became their masters,
and their souls became the slaves,
as they measured out the minutes,
and divided out the days,
in the ending of time,
in the ending,
of time

I Am*

i am the ocean,
touching every shore,
i am the wind,
upon which the seagulls soar,
i am the clouds,
i am the rain,
falling down,
i am the mountain,
standing majestically,
i am the bird,
flying in the breeze,
i am the river,
flowing down, down, down,
to me

If It Wasn’t For The Love

light, edge of night,
wounds my naked eye,
and I bled the love of joyous pain,
and I’m waiting for your smile,
my lover,
in a world of rainbows,
and if it wasn’t for the pain,
I never known what I’d gained,
so kiss me for tonight,
tomorrow will take care of itself,
let the world spin, let the world spin,
let our love win, love win,
and if it wasn’t,
wasn’t for the love,
I’d never known the joy,
so kiss me for tonight,
tomorrow will take care of itself

Inside-Out

the world is funny, that’s a fact,
it’s funny  when you think of that,
funny, funny ain’t no doubt,
funny from the inside out,
so I gotta be careful what I choose,
‘cause I love to win, but I hate to lose,
I got this feelin’ that’s no doubt,
I feel it from the inside out,
life’s so funny, very very funny,
your so funny,
I’m so funny to me,
sure enough sure enough,
hit and run,
before I go I’m gonna have some fun,
more and more funky, that’s a fact,
I’m leavin, I ain’t comin back,
so the world is funny, ain’t that true,
people don’t let it bother you,
funny, funny, that’s a bet,
I tell you what, it ain’t over yet,
life so funny,
very very funny,
your so funny,
I’m so funny to me,
living in eternity-
so I’m leavin’ this morning,
leaving today,
I’m gonna be leavin’ here in every way,
leavin’, leavin’ that’s a fact,
leavin, I ain’t comin’ back,
well I’m not an agent, I’m not a spy,
and I like to tell the truth but I love to lie,
you know I’m lucky, yes that’s true,
I got more luck then I can do,
lucky, lucky, ain’t no doubt,
lucky from the inside-out,
so I’ll tell you a secret, I won’t lie,
I cross my heart and I hope to die,
the world is funny, like a sin,
funny from the outside-in

Ireland

in the heart of your woman
is the pint of your man,
in a pub where your drinkin’
as long as you can stand,
might be the love o’ music,
might be the toast and  tea,
i’m not sure just what it is,
but it’s deep inside of me,
ireland, ireland, ireland,
i met a man in your baggot inn,
waitin’ for my show,
says  come here for the music,
not just for the beer ya’ know,
says i love me country,
but gettin’ tired of the rain,
if I could pull the fuckin’ anchor up,
i’d sail her down to spain,
ireland, ireland, ireland,
her name she said was ‘doubtsin’,
and she only knew two songs,
but she walked on stage like janis joplin,
as if she did belong,
then she sang like an angel,
and I floated from the ground,
o’er fourteen chairs and twenty lads,
to get closer to the sound,
ireland, ireland, ireland,
last day cecelia tuohy said,
that i would not return,
when i told her she was wrong,
she said i’d never learn,
then she kissed me for the last time,
and said it twas a bet,
well I’ve been travelling a hundred years,
and haven’t been back yet,
ireland, ireland, ireland

James*

james, james, james,
where do we go when we can’t go home?
who do we call when we pick up the phone,
what was our face before we were born,
it’s not so bad, being alone,
james, james, it’s very strange,
the way things go,
the way things go,
james, james, james,
it’s in the nature of people to strive,
we like to remember before we arrive,
it’s in the nature of being alive,
we all do what we can to survive,
james, james, it’s very strange,
the way things go,
the way things go,
and the dream of the child,
and the hope, and the glory,
and the teachers, and the judges,
and the critics, and the fools,
taking you, taking me,
taking all of us to see their way,
james-
are we feeling under the gun,
sometimes we don’t know where we can run,
have we started before we’ve begun?
thinking about the things we have done,
james,
and the dream of the child,
and the hope, and the glory,
and the teachers, and the judges,
and the critics, and the fools,
taking you, taking me,
taking all of us to see their way

Journeysong

the wind was shining on the day,
the sun blew steady streaming rays,
his hair danced while his feet dangled down,
in the cool, running water,
.he listened to the quiet all around,
listened to it sing its song without a sound,
his thoughts took him far beyond the clouds,
seeking the one connection
most of the time he walked through windows,
hanging pictures on doors,
then from a distance he heard a cry,
he began to follow on the wings of his mental eye,
instantly there was a change in the sound,
as he journeyed on in the twilight of this place without bound,
and he smiled as he realized it was a song,
whose harmony was the wind that carried him on.

Karma

o-my-ay-lo! o-my-ay-lo! o-my-ay-lo!
what are you doing?  where are you going?
what are you doing?  where are you going?
karma.
o-my-ay-lo! o-my-ay-lo! o-my-ay-lo!
karma is not cosmic judgement,
karma is only action,
what you do is what you are,
karma is only action,
what you do is what you are,
what you do is what you are is what you do,
what you are is what you do is what you are,
what the man does is what the man is,
what the man does,
what the woman does is what the woman is,
what the woman does,
what is your vision?  what is your decision?
where is the transition?  what is your position?
karma

Leavin’ Blues

i’ll be leavin’ when i can,
i’ll be leavin’ when i can,
but the luck’s been against me,
so i’m leavin when i can,
i’ll be leavin’ when i can, i’ll be leavin’ when i can,
cause i wanna go,
wanna hit the road,
wanna be a leavin’ man,
want to go, i want to go so bad,
want to go, but that bad luck that i have had,
is keeping me here, keepin’ me down,
i’ll be leavin’ when i go, i’ll be leavin when i go,
but when that sweet day will come, i don’t know
want to go, i want to go so bad,
want to go, but all the bad luck that i have had,
i’ll be leavin’ when i can, i’ll be leavin’ when i can,
cause i wanna go, wanna hit the road,
wanna be a leavin’ man…..

Letter from Blaine

in light of a lonely word,
I must say I am lonely,
no more colour,
no more flavour,
then the empty darkness of the night before,
summer has brought many things,
the heat may be one of those,
not much and much has happened,
many important and unimportant things

Lonely Man

where once stood a child, now stands a man,
and the saddest thing is he’s forgotton the plan,
where there were once dreams and hope,
to this man home is a shirt and a coat
and he wonders if tonight will be cold,
and he wonders if the children consider him old,
such a lonely man
where once was a future, now there’s a past,
and the days, they’re like leaves, they blow through the grass,
and all that he wants is a friend,
one smiling face to be there at the end
and he wonders if tonight will be cold,
and he wonders if the children consider him old,
such a lonely man

Look At Us Now

look at us now,
dancing on a cloud,
going new directions,
look at us now,
dancing on a cloud,
going new directions,
you know we have the song,
we had it all along,
all we need to do is play it,
play it,
look at at us now,
dancing on a cloud,
making new connections

Medusa

better days, better days,
i’m gonna get me some better days,
when i can wake up in the summer,
to the sound of my own drummer,
as he plays, as he plays,
i’m gonna get me some better days-
my name is medusa, and often,
i find myself alone,
no one to love me,
nobody that i can call my own,
but i’m a righteous siren, i’ll sing so sweetly,
i’ll make you lose your home,
i’ll take you to my mountain and love you,
until you turn to stone,
i’ll take you to my garden,
there you’ll find a home,
i’ll take you to my garden and love you,
until you turn to stone,
cause people rarely notice,
while their life is passing by,
stones live very, very slowly,
and i don’t know why,
so listen to me sweetly,
’til you can’t hear no more,
when you’re a statue in my gardern,
gonna sing for you somemore,
cause time ain’t really nothing,
when you lose your peace of mind,
there may or may not be a reason,
but there’s sure enough a rhyme,
so look at me more closely,
cause I don’t want to be alone,
i’ll take you to my mountain, and love you,
until you turn to stone,
take you the my mountain, and love you,
until you turn, until you turn,
until you turn, to,
better days, better days,
we gonna get us some better days

Middle Way

between the bell and the stryker,
between the written and the writer,
between the death and the living,
between the taking and the giving,
iam going, i am not going,
middle way, middle way
between doman and the boundary,
between heretic and the heresy,
between the vain and the vanity,
between the sane and the sanity,
i am going, i am not going,
middle way, middle way
between the truth and the fantasy,
between the touch and the ecstasy,
between stillness and activity,
between moment and eternity,
between search and the seeking,
between letting go and the keeping,
between the silence and the speaking,
between the harvest and the reaping
i am going, i am not going,
middle way, middle way

Miles To Go

and now that i’m home,
i just wanted you to know,
that you’re my friends, and i missed you on the road-
well you go out with great expectations,
cause you know life is filled with fascinations,
yet through the good times,
as you pick yourself up from the bad times,
still you remember you’re alone-
and now that i’m home,
i just wanted you to know,
that you’re my friends, and i missed you on the road,
it’s so funny you know, ‘the nations’,
your head aches from the endless speculations,
but don’t you love hitting the road?
but you always hate to go,
but it’s okay, you can survive alone-
and now that i’m home,
i just wanted you to know,
that you’re my friends, and i missed you on the road,
good to see your eyes, and i missed you on the road,
and the best road to travel is that one that leads to home,
but something keeps you moving,
something keeps you rolling on,
something keeps you moving down the road,
but you always want it known,
and now that i’m home,
i just wanted you to know,
that you’re my friends, and i missed you on the road,
good to see your eyes, and i missed you on the road…..

Moments Of The Present

I’m walking just for walking,
playing just for playing,
talking just for talking,
flying just for flying,
but when I am aware,
of my growing inspiration,
life within me flowing out,
in colours of mine,
I am not waiting for an invitation,
when I feel my coming dream,
I’m seeing just for seeing,
listening just to listen,
I’m holding just for holding,
loving just for loving,
but when I am aware,
of my growing inspiration,
life within me flowing out,
in colours of mine,
I am not waiting for an invitation,
when I feel my coming dream,

Moonlight In Manchuria

there’s a moonlight in manchuria tonight,
and it’s so mystical,
the air is alive,
and warm and rocking in nature’s delight,
like magnetic moonbeams
here by the ocean side,
there’s a clear view
of the stars in diamond sky,
that I see,
reflected in your eyes,
it makes me think,
of night’s embracing as one,
here my thoughts, touch me,
there’s a moonlight in manchuria tonight,
it’s so alive and magical,
like your touch,
like your eyes,
like your laugh,
like your tears,
so let’s watch the waves flow,
and just let our love grow

Morning Light

gathering light, oh, the morning light
we wake to the sound of the stream,
in the morning light,
we smile at each other and listen to the stream,
in the morning light,
we laugh and dance and sing and play,
letting the sun and the wind lead our way,
living together, loving today,
in the morning light-
we walk hand in hand and talk of our dreams,
in the morning light,
for a moment we stop, and look at the byrds,
in the morning light,
we move on as we listen to them sing,
in the morning light,
we laugh and dance and sing and play,
letting the sun and the earth lead our way,
living together, loving today,
in the morning light

Mushroomsong

went off to college,
majored in english,
thought I would finish,
but then I found mushrooms!
Off the the navy,
ate biscuits and gravy,
the waves were real wavy,
but still there was mushrooms,
became a janitor,
pushing those brooms,
but everything’s real cool,
cause those wonderful shrooms,
but I’m sorry mother,
I’m sorry dad,
I’m so poor,
I can’t even afford a loaf of bread,
I’m just a mushroomhead,
but I seen a lotta rainbows,
and rainbows are good,
kids like rainbows,
and kids are good,
so anything that make’s you see rainbows, is good
I’ll finish my story,
though it gets kind of gorey,
a tale filled with doom,
got freaked out on mushrooms,
I think that I’m dying,
no use in crying,
I’m sure that over my tomb,
will grow plenty of mushrooms,
but I’m sorry mother,
sorry dad,
I’m fading fast, I’m so full of dread,
I’m just a mushroomhead,
but I’ve seen a lotta sunsets,
and sunsets are good,
kids like sunsets,
and kids are good,
so anything that let’s you enjoy that sunset,
is good, good, good

Now

i’m wondering about you-
whether you’ve found a way to breathe,
now, breathing in,
now, breathing out,
now, feel the heart beating,
now, find the smile,
now, notice the sun rays,
now, the water runs,
now, the unseen days,
Now, the child plays,
now, the intuition comes,
now

One of 11

I have been old before,
there is spent a thousand years,
and you were there,
remember the river, remember the water?
It was motionless,
motionless stream,
and we moved by it in our motionless dream,
there was no time there,
time had no place there,
time is only a single dimension,
you know who you are,
but do you know who you were?
Look at me and see yourself,
in reflection of my soul,
take your time,
for time has no place here,
there is no time here,
time is only a single dimension,
time is only a single dimension,
motionless,
at once, you are everywhere,
motionless,
we didn’t have a care,
motionless,
as we watched, reflections in the stream,
motionless,
as we looked to our waking dream,
dream,
to our waking dream,

Opening

in the air birds swim,
in the sea fish fly,
in the air birds swim,
in the sea fish fly,
opening!  opening!  opening!
gate, gate, paragate,
para sum gate,
bodhi, svai!
gate, gate, paragate,
para sum gate,
bodhi, svai!
opening!, opening!  opening!
gone, gone, gone beyond,
fully beyond, awake! Rejoice!
gone, gone, gone beyond,
fully beyond, awake! rejoice!
opening! opening! opening!
to liberate all beings without number,
to uproot endless blind passions,
to penetrate dharma gates beyond measure,
to attain the great way of buddha!

out of the city blues
libewent in the city last saturday night met a man,
with nailprints in his hand, whoa,
he said pack your bags cuz your time is at hand,
I say what? What you talkin about?
What is a man like you doin uptown like this today?
Said if you don’t go soon, I’m sure you get blown away!
He just smiled, didn’t look to worried,
said get your brother, get your grandpa too,
I’m tellin you son we got the out of the city blues,
Goin out of the city blues, goin out of the city blues,
So I went away runnin’ got my Uncle Jack,
So I went away runnin’ got my Uncle Jack,
Said we gonna leave this city and we never comin’ back!
We got the goin out of the city blues,
Got the goin out of the city blues,
Goin out of the city blues, we got the
Goin out of the city blues, Out of the city blues,
So if you live in this city,
Especially if you live in New York City,
If you live in Atlantic City,
If you live in Iowa City,
If you live in any city-sooner or later you be singing the
Goin out of the City Blues…

Over The Horizon

shall we go over the horizon line?
i don’t know, i don’t know,
if I should go,
over the horizon line….

Quiet Creek

down I go to the quiet creek,
to write another song,
I have pen and scroll in hand,
I have my soul,
and have brought my guitar along,
I remember rosewood,
many a night we’d sing the night away,
I miss those days,
and I recall when first my love,
you took me by the hands,
o, you are my special friend,
my love for you will never end,
and all I want is to be with you,
sing songs to you that echo through your heart,
I love you, I love you,
so down I go to the quiet creek,
to write another song,
I have my pen and scroll in hand,
and next time I go,
I’ll bring my love along,
I’ll see you soon…

Rainbowsong

woke one morning and found a rainbow in my room,
don’t know how it got in,
my windows were fogged with depression,
I ignored it though,
and dressed for rain,
but outside I found the sun,
crystal clear,
shining down on me,
walking down the road,
the people passed me by
with smiles and hellos,
and I decided that life was not my foe after all,
as the day wore on,
I turned to find my rainbow, following me,
the sky in my eyes,
magnificant blue,
it made me realize,
the wonder of my eyes,
see my rainbow,
see my,
see my rainbow,
my rainbow…

Riding The Sky

i’ll come and i’ll go a thousand times,
i’ll come and i’ll go a thousand times,
a thousand times, a thousand times,
i’ll come and i’ll go a thousand times,
i’ll reap and i’ll sew, a thousand times,
i’ll reap and ill sew, a thousand times,
a thousand times, a thousand times,
i’ll reap and i’ll sew, a thousand times,
new days like the old days,
old days like the new days,
something never happens,
like the old days, like the new days,
i’ll be waiting for you,
i’ll be waiting for you,
i’ll be waiting for you,
i’ll be waiting, for you,
and i’ll set sail, and i’ll live in the waves,
as they knock upon my door,
and i will answer, and i’ll kiss the water,
when i’m standing on the shore,
i’ll laugh and cry a thousand times,
i’ll laugh and i’ll cry a thousand times,
i’ll laugh and i’ll cry, a thousand times,
and i’ll live and i’ll die, a thousand times,
meet me at the station,
at track thirty-one,
and i’ll be waiting,
i’ll be waiting for you,
i’ll be waiting for you,
i’ll be waiting for you,
i’ll be waiting, for you,
and i’ll set sail, and i’ll live in the waves,
as they knock upon my door,
and i will answer, and i’ll kiss the water,
when i’m standing on the shore,
when i’m staning on the shore,
when i’m standing on the shore…

Run Boy

Run, run, run boy,
you’ve got to escape from the ball,
run, run, run boy,
or they’ll catch you  and make you fall,
run, run, run boy!
save yourself from the fire!
run, run, run boy,
pull yoursef from the mire,
you must learn to see the rocks grow,
you must learn to see the trees die,
you must create in your mind the vision of heaven,
and then you must learn how to fly,
run boy!
save yourself from the fire!
run boy,
save yourself from the fire…!

Seeing You Again

Seeing you again,
reminds me of the first time
we climbed nature’s cathedrals into the sun,
life flowing through my heart,
as I looked upon the valleys below,
seeing you again,
the feeling of exuberance,
in the crystal waters of the ocean,
and I had just begun,
to understand why my heart sings,
when I hold your hand in mine,
and one day there will be a time
for you and me,
we’ll walk through meadows,
and learn to know each other’s
feelings as our own,
but for now we must do what we must do,
and learn what we can about today,
for now I will be happy seeing you again,
seeing you again,
reminds me of the first time,
I looked into your eyes and you smiled,
smiled,
but for now we must do what we must do,
and learn what we can about today,
for now I will be happy seeing you again…

sing out!

Solitary Man

he walked in quiet refuge through the crowd,
silently shielding himself from the loudness,
he was a solitary man,
having a solitary plan of awakening,
he wasn’t and old man,
though he had the eyes of age,
living out each moment of his life,
in solitary ways,
lifting up his head,
mortal skin he had shed,
looking up to the sky,
he began to fly away,
to the sun,
change, going down,
all the things, that he had found,
music in the air,
wondrous sound that we share,
he walked in quiet refuge through the crowd…

So Long Kudra*

just like the bird that flies,
just like the time goes by,
swiftly moving on the moment,
and I see you now,
and I wonder how
we ever slipped away,
I miss you,
and every second is ten thousand years,
rainbows shining through the tears,
letting go of all the fears that keep us down,
o, i am lighter now,
kudra it’s been so long,
o, so very long,
so long kudra so long
since I sang to you,
but I’m back again,
like the beginning and the end,
beats on your doorstep again,
my old friend,
you can take my hand,
step into the sand,
jasmine ocean tide,
we are here again,
and every second is ten thousand years,
rainbows shining through the tears,
letting go of all the fears that keep us down,
o, we are lighter now,
find your life in the breath,
it is lighter than the death,
slip off the shackle of time
and continue,
and every second is ten thousand years,
rainbows shining through the tears,
letting go of all the fears that keep us down,
o, we are lighter now…

Somewhere

Somewhere,
sometime,
some place,
some rhyme,
someday,
some face,
somebody,
some life,
some way,
some say,
we’ve got to play our song,
someday,
we’ve got to play our song,
some way,
we’ve got to play our song
and soon in the light of you…

Song for Zeno*

You have asked me how i am,
i’m the same,
you want to know if i’m okay,
i’m the same,
i’m still looking for the answers,
still looking for the man within the man,
still doing the best that i can,
it’s the same, it’s the same,
now you tell that you think the world is changing,
but it’s the same,
and all the new and wonderous things you see,
it’s the same,
when I listen to the ocean,
when i feel the wind blow by,
when i look up into the sky,
it’s the same, it’s the same,
now you tell me that you still don’t understand me,
but i’m the same,
you say you don’t understand the way i am,
i’m the same,
i was looking for approval,
but i’m not running from the blame,
i just don’t want to play the game,
it’s the same, it’s the same,
now you know I have to leave soon,
it’s the same,
there’s still so many roads I have to travel down,
it’s the same,
it’s a strange path that i follow,
i’m not sure where it will end,
but i’ll think of you my friend,
it’s the same, it’s the same…

Song of Soul

temple of the body,
living flexibility,
yogasana,
temple of the body,
yogasana,
living flexibility,
neither ego~reason,
neither mind~thought,
I cannot be heard
nor cast into words,
nor by smell
nor sight ever caught,
in light and wind I am not found,
nor yet in earth and sky,
consciousnness and joy incarnate,
bliss of the blissful am I,
I have no name, I have no life,
I breathe no vital air,
no elements have moulded me,
no bodymind for a lair,
I have no speech, no hands or feet,
nor means of evolution,
consciousnness and joy am I,
finding bliss in my dissolution,
I cast aside hatred and passion,
am not distracted by delusion and greeed
no touch of pride caresses me,
so envy cannot feed,
beyond faith, past reach of wealth,
past freedom, past desire,
consciousness and joy am I,
and bliss is my attire,
virtue and vice, pleasure and pain are not my history,
nor sacred texts, nor offerings,
nor prayer, nor profundity,
I am not the food, nor the eating,
nor the eater of pain ,
consciousness and joy am I,
and merging in bliss is my aim,
I have no misgiving of death,
no chasms of race divide me,
no parent ever called me child,
no bond of birth ever tied me,
I am neither disciple nor master,
I have no kin, no friend,
consciousness and joy am I,
and merging in bliss is my end,
neither knowing, knowledge,
nor knower am I, formless is my form,
i dwell within the senses
but they are not my home,
ever serenely balanced,
i am neither free nor bound,
consciousness and joy am i
and bliss is where i am found

Spy*

(all that’s said and done, what is done is done),
(all that’s said and done, what is done is done),
I’m a spy- sent to gather information,
I come from another dimension,
I’m a transdimensional traveller,
all that’s said and done, all that’s said and done,
ever since the obsession of dr. no,
ever since the disappearance of emptyhands,
you have been living in the wake of time,
in a dark land, in a shadowland,
what is done is done, what is done is done,
you might call me an alien,
but I’m not an alien,
you are my brothers and my sisters,
though you have forgotten who you are,
you might call me an angel,
but I’m no angel,
no, i came long after the age of angels failed,
to reunite the world!
and the age of prophets,
they were burned, tortured,
persecuted, prosecuted,
and executed,
for merely attempting to demonstrate
the essence of immortality,
and the illusion of death,
in their further attempts to reunite the world!
we’re putting the pieces together like a puzzle,
putting the pieces together like a puzzle,
and i’m a spy…

Standing By Myself

standing by myself,
ain’t got nobody else,
i’m standing by myself,
you are so far,
baby your so far,
i can’t help it,
it’s just the way things are,
i don’t mind, making it on my own,
as long as I don’t have to do it all alone, yea,
what am i going to do,
to help me make it through,
i’m standing, standing by myself,
later i’m at home,
siting all alone,
wondering if you’ll call,
i enjoy my solitarity,
as long as I’ve got you here with me, yea,
standing by myself,
ain’t got nobody else,
i’m standing by myself,
you are so far,
baby your so far,
i can’t help it,
it’s just the way things are…

Standing In The Light

if you meet the buddha on the road,
walk on up and say “hello, buddha!”
‘cause buddha’s like a friend
that you’ll never have again,
buddha’s like the wind
that blows through the flowers
that he holds in his hand,
do we see the light, standing in the light…?

Phoenix*

phoenix! phoenix! phoenix! phoenix!
steam, fire-water, phoenix!
ocean son, fire daughter,
steam, fire-water,
ocean son, fire daughter,
make the clouds, make the rain, falls on fire,
rises up again, phoenix!
phoenix! phoenix! phoenix!
steam, water-fire,
passion of, new desire,
steam, water-fire,
passion of, new desire,
fire woman on the sand,
loves the water, loves the water man, phoenix!
testify!
phoenix! phoenix! phoenix!
Like synaptic riverbeds,
like galactic spiral heads,
Like feigenbaums and feynamans,
like Lewis Carroll said,
don’t go coining phrases,
don’t go chasing wonder rabbits,
don’t go trying to answer answers,
don’t regress into old habits,
lift your head to the sky,
watch the flame the firebird,
Watch the phoenix fly…

Purple Raven

if i could make the weather,
i’d make it rain rainbows from a blue sky,
i could unleash my heart a cry,
and watch the purple raven fly,
if i could make a flower,
i’d grow it in the garden of your heaven,
we could watch the world go by,
watch the purple raven,

Salvador

What’s my colour, Salvador?
You know colour’s open door
You get a little, and you want more

So says my friend Salvidore

Eagles swimming, Dolphins soar,
To dream of what we did before
dripping  echo, lion’s roar

With the paintbrush, Salvador

Hermes knocking at my door
Just returned from magick shore
Tells me what he’s come here for
Bring the message, Salvidor

And you can  make the morning come
And you can  play inside the sun
And you can throw me the silver line
And you could bring the end of time

And you can end the night and day,
And you can bring the old way,
the new new way
And you can

And you can take me out of maze,
and you can see the purple haze,
King and priest, rich and poor
Can you hear me, Salvadore

Got to look behing the wall,
There my friend we see it all
make an end of mental war,
So says my friend Salvador…

Sunshine

sunshine, sunshine, don’t go away,
sunshine, sunshine, don’t go away,
sunshine, sunshine, don’t you go away,
o, sunshine, please don’t go away,
sunshine, sunshine, don’t fade away,
sunshine, sunshine, don’t fade away,
sunshine, sunshine, the world is lookng grey,
o, sunshine, please don’t fade away,
don’t fade away, don’t fade away, o,
don’t fade away, don’t fade away,
sunshine, sunshine, don’t stay away,
sunshine, sunshine, don’t stay away,
sunshine, sunshine,
there’s not much left to say,
but sunshine, please don’t stay away,
cause sun got away, sun got away,
sun got away, sun got away,
sun got away, sun got away, o,
light is going, darkness coming,
not much time to delay,
no more killing, no more fighting,
we must save the sunshine…!

The Dawn

the dawn is coming my way,
but i still want to play,
the night has been long,
the people all have gone,
and the dawn is coming my way,
i’ve got something to say,
it’s about finding your way,
how would you feel if nothing was real,
and your colours had faded to grey?
so the dawn is coming my way,
but i still want to play,
how would you feel if nothing was real,
and the dawn is coming my way,
he was looking in the dark,
for things that most don’t want to find,
opening doors in his mind,
that other people hide behind,
walking in the dark,
down and empty hallway,
there he stood alone,
and he thought about who he was,
and where he was going-
where was he going…?

The Response

Breath after breath,
wave after wave,
feelings are released,
the response,
through the portal,
in this ship i travel,
cross the void,
o’er the cosmos,
carrying the sound that you’ve,
released inside of me
the response, i love,
the portal of my heart,
you can see the cosmos,
the void, the sun the stars,
my love, contained,
in this ship that i call home,
transparent blue-green eyes,
the void, the mind,
the heart, o, i love,
breath after breath,
feelings are released,
what chords, what keys,
will be struck inside of you,
inside me, released,
on the face the portal of my heart,
come here, and have a look,
you are my love,
and the rain, and the rainbows,
and the the rain, and the rainbows,
before the creation,
and you are my love,
the response, i love,
tell me of the sound
that you’ve released inside of me,
here is the portal of my heart,
i love you,
the response…

The Return

show me the way back to my mind,
i’ve lost the way, i can’t find myself,
where have i been, where did i go?
i want to return
lifting up out of the haze,
self-perpetuating maze,
living someone else’s ways,
as my reality,
it’s just an illusion,
all i ever hope to find,
must beginning-ending time,
inspiration thus conceived,
becomes my reality,
else it’s just an illusion
show me the way back to my mind,
i’ve lost the way, i can’t find myself,
where have i been, where did i go?
i want to return,
and find the music,
flowing in me,
I want to return,
alright, alright,
it’s alright when you come out of the shadows,
realizing there’s no wrong and no right,
it’s alright to come out of the shadows,
aren’t you glad you can live in the light,
alright!
alright…!

There in the Quiet

there in the quiet, we watch, we touch,
we listen to our bodies sharing rhyme,
do you know what it’s about?
and we’ve got to find our peace of mind,
don’t you want to, don’t you want to fly?
there in the quiet, we watch, we touch,
we listen to our bodies sharing rhyme,
do you know what it’s about?
don’t you want to find it out?
don’t you want to find your way?
find your way!  won’t you find your way…?

To Be

to turn another page,
to live another life,
to carry on,
to live another day
to be there when you’re down
to sometimes act the clown,
can we be too real?
can we hope for some kind of reality?
i’ve always hoped to see what I hope to see,
to be too high, to really want to die,
to live another day,
to be there when you’re down
to sometimes act the clown,
can we be too real?
can we hope for some kind of reality?
i hope to see,
the things I’ve always hoped to see…

To Stephanie

hello there,
do you remember me?
don’t think I’ve seen you in awhile,
I’m the one who played guitar,
never really got to far,
but knew there was still so much to see,
hello there
do you remember me?
don’t thing I’ve seen you in awhile,
I’m the one who sang to you,
your love was something new,
and it’s still very easy for me to see,
I’ve come here for a moment,
I’ll be gone again to soon,
and all that I can offer you
is today
goodbye now,
hope you’ll remember me,
don’t think I’ll see you in awhile,
I’m the one who’ll think of you,
I’ll be the one to make it through,
and I know there’s still a chance that I may see,
you again…

Trainsong

These old tracks,
Hold old freight trains,
Down the miles they stretch away time,
Well Old John, outs his harmonica,
Dusts it off an begins to play,
la, la, la, it goes,
la, la, la,

i’ve been riding the rails,
for ten years to a day,
and haven’t seen an end in sight,
then some people tell you,
you can live your life on a train,
I think I might,
la, la, la it goes,
la, la, la,

Utopia

you can’t stop the sunlight,
you can’t stop the sunlight,
you can’t stop the sunlight,
when it shines,
you can’t stop the rain,
you can’t stop the rain, no,
you can’t stop the rain,
when it falls,
when it falls,
there’s no way to know for sure,
no such thing as a perfect cure for the blues,
you can’t change the weather,
but you can change your mind,
you can seek utopia,
it’s there for you to find,
you can’t stop the time,
you can’t stop the time,
cannot stop the time,
when it comes,
you can’t stop the river,
you can’t stop the river,
you can’t stop the river,
when it runs,
when it runs,
there’s no way to know for sure,
no such thing as a perfect cure for the blues,
for the blues,
you can’t change the weather,
but you can change your mind,
you can seek utopia,
it’s there for you to find…

Watching The Children Clay

watching the children play,
I am old and grey,
walking down with my old friend,
you say, look! The clouds are grey
I say there clearing,
o, the sun’s going down,
then they’ll be stars shining,
won’t you believe in me,
we used to live for future,
always worried about tomorrow,
dreaming about the things to come,
now there’s dark clouds on your eyes,
you look so blue,
you say, “look the clouds are grey”
I say their clearing,
“o, the sun’s going down”,
then there’ll be stars shining,
won’t you believe in me?
I’m living just for living,
got to keep on living,
got to keep on keeping on,
and I wake up in the morning seeing the sun,
and I wake up in the morning breathing the air,
and I wake up in the morning seeing you,
you…

Watching The Lady Looking

woman, are you calling,
for me to be near you?
First you’ve got to find, yourself,
amidst the pain and confusion,
because you can’t love any body else,
until you love yourself,
woman, are you crying?
Do you find it hard to look on me,
then take sometime, to aquaint yourself,
to your soul, that’s hiding there,
because you can’t see anybody else,
until you see yourself,
woman, are you laughing?
It’s been some time since I’ve seen your eyes,
did you find yourself
deep inside,
yes, I can see it in your eyes,
so now that you’ve set your mind at ease,
won’t you walk with me,
so now that you’ve set your mind at ease,
won’t you walk with me?

Water

water, water,
clouds in my eyes,
tears in the skies, water,
hear the thunder sound,
hear the rain coming down, water,
I cannot decide,
I’m up and down like the ocean tide, water,
life from the sea,
and everything that it can be, water,
my soul is running dry,
help me now, take me to the water,
oh, I want to see the ocean,
take me to the water,
oh, I want to feel the river,
take me to the water,
isn’t time to be waking,
ignorance we should be shaking,
which direction we are taking,
we should be shedding,
which direction are we heading?
We should not be treading,
people should not be treading on the water…

The Way Out

the way out is the way in,
the way in is the way out,
the way out, the way out,
who would have known it would be like this?
such a surprise after all the analysis!
the way out is the way in,
the way in is the way out, the way out, the way out,
hard, when you want to know, and you have to let it go,
hard, when you want to grow, to wait a little longer,
hard, when you want to go, and you don’t want to know,
harder, to find yourself, your face in the crowd,
harder, to find yourself, your self in the crowd,
harder, I’ve got my head in the clouds, looking for angels…..

Weaverman

weaverman, you touch the sky,
and catch the wind as it passes by-
you thread your way in coloured in paths,
designing futures to keep the past-
play the weaver with coloured thread,
designing patterns in your head,
weaverman, o! weaverman,
ride the carpet in arabian scenes!
find the sword in camelot dreams!
Use your mind to bend the time,
and hide yourself within the rhyme-
play the weaver with coloured thread,
designing patterns in your head,
weaverman, o! weaverman,
don’t hang it on the wall!
don’t lay it upon the floor to die!
just take it outside to the sky,
say the magick and fly…

What Is Left Of Me

when i wake up from my sleeping,
when i open up my eyes,
when i let go the fears and distractions,
what will be left, what will be left of me?
when i give up all my disguises,
when i leave all my worries behind me,
when i unfold all of the layers,
what will be left, what will be left of me?
i have been living in a dream,
it always seemed so real-
what does my sleeping self really feel?
will it be different when i wake up,
is the price too high, a risk i should take up?
or would i lose my way, lost in a daze,
spending the rest of my life trapped, in a maze,
no-one really knows, it’s a one-way ride,
there isn’t anyway to decide,
but by my heart, by my flesh and blood,
i will survive-
i will see what will be left of me,
when i stop procrastinating,
when i lay my body down,
when i put all my cards on the table,
what will be left, what will be left of me?
when i am totally into the moment,
when i’m here and nowhere else,
when i have no past and no future,
what will be left, what will be left of me?
i have been living in a dream,
it always seemed so real-
what does my sleeping self really feel?
will it be different when i wake up,
is the price too high, a risk i should take up?
or would i lose my way, lost in a haze,
spending the rest of my life trapped, in a maze,
no-one really knows, it’s a one-way ride,
there isn’t anyway to decide,
but by my heart, by my flesh and blood,
i will survive- i will see what will be left of me…

Won’t You Come In?

won’t you come in,
won’t you come in,
isn’t it a strange world,
isn’t it a crazy world were living in,
o, what a crazy world,
won’t you come in,
come in awhile,
i really want to see your face,
i really want to see your smile,
o, want to see your smile,
sometimes we do what we don’t want to do,
it makes no sense at all,
sometimes we go where we don’t wanna go,
it’s hard to remember why,
and hard to know what the future brings,
o, what the future brings,
won’t you come in,
sit on down,
i’ll play for you tonight,
i’ll play for you tonight,
listen to the sound,
o, listen to the sound,
won’t you come in,
come to me,
cause i like it when you’re near,
i like it when your close to me,
o, when your close to me…

Worlds Of Wonder

magick places,
worlds of wonder,
speaking rivers,
worlds of wonder…

You Never Know

you never know, you never know,
never know how life is going to go,
but you always wake up with yourself,
but you never know…

All words copyright 1998-2008 by David A. Engstrøm